Tuesday, March 16, 2010

it's. been. real.

so since my last blog, a LOT has happened... a lot of emotions, etc etc etc

I've definitely gotten some good girl time in lately with different friends, all of which has been MUCH needed. Work has picked up and that's great.

It's also been one of those why-did-God-see-fit-to-let-me-be-a:
mom
wife
self-employed
nanny
nurse
cook
maid
baker
personal shopper
taxi
etc
etc
etc

He obviously sees something in me that I am constantly trying to learn about myself. Why am I worthy? Why does He love me?

Because He does...Nuff said. Because He says so...Something I say to my kids all the time "because I said so" but just like with my own children, that doesn't always seem to be a "good enough" answer...And it should be enough.

It should be enough that the Creator of the Universe loved/s me enough that He wanted me here. So why is it so hard? I have no idea...but I know it has to do with my human nature and my sin nature. But now...I have to constantly have to remind myself and rest in the knowledge that He is enough and His reasons are enough. And I'm blessed because of it.